So the last 4 days Jay has been giving me the shots of follistim, and now I am done!!! I went to the RE today and he said that I have excellent response to the shots. I think I had about 5 follies on my right ovary and 2 on my left. They are all about 12mm so in a week they should all be just about the right size. I am getting excited for this C....
On Saturday I was at my sisters house with my parents for my mothers birthday. Of course I had to bring the shot and leave it in her fridge. And of course she asked me about it, to which I just explained that it was medicine I have to take at a certain time. It was kinda weird when I had to leave the room to give myself a shot.
Later on in the night my Aunt asked me if I was planning on having kids anytime soon. Which then she proceeded with a quick, "well you have plenty of time" I then stated, not really since we have some things that are inhibiting us to get pregnant. This of course turned into a full, blown out conversation about infertility. I was ok with talking to my Aunt about it. She is my Godmother, and I am very close with her. But my sister was there, and it was a bit uneasy with her listening to all of this with surprise...NO response or input whatsoever. My aunt surprisingly got it. She immediately understood my frustrations. It was nice to get it out (and my mother backed me up on a lot of topics that came up) and my sister may have even understood a little bit better, but I know she still doesn't approve of infertility treatments. Or at least not only a year in.
But my question to all of you (if your still reading : ) is what do you do when that dreaded question comes up? I for some reason tend to let it all out. And then regret it afterwards. I don't know why but when asked or approached about the topic I just cant steer clear of 'letting it all out' so to speak. I wish I could just clam up and say nothing, but I never do.
Its funny though, because a lot of the things that I said that night, I would have never been able to say, just to my sister. So I guess in a way, it was a good thing. But besides my family...even my friends or co-workers - its hard to ignore the topic. And I guess since its such a sore subject for me, its hard not to say how I am feeling.
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Unfortunately I tend to blurt it all out too! Don't know what my problem is....
ReplyDeleteI am completely honest about my infertility. I figure that if they have the guts to ask a personal question like that, then they should be able to handle any answer that is given.
ReplyDeleteNever thought of it like that Lila...I likey : )
ReplyDeleteIt depends for me. Sometimes I blurt it all out, sometimes I just say, "Hopefully soon." And sometimes I say something really rude. Depends on my mood I guess!
ReplyDeleteI wouldn't worry too much about spilling everything to people when they ask. At worst it could make them uncomfortable, which is fitting since they're asking a very personal question.
I usually just blurt it out - as long as it's someone I know. I figure it's not something I should be ashamed about. To me, it's just like talking about any other medical problem. And I figure if they asked, they want to know.
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you with the shots. I had to have DH give me a shot in the middle of my nephew's first birthday party. Luckily, 15 min before the shot was due, the food was served, so we took that opportunity to get teh shot done :)
I use to hold it all in and say "one day soon, hopefully" but that got to be too much and now I just tell it like it is.
ReplyDeleteMost times they don't know what to say & either shut up or act like they didn't hear me. (Like maybe if they heard nothing, than it really isn't true.) Yeah right, I wish it was that easy.
It really depends on who the person is that's asking. If its family or someone who might tell family, I just say "maybe some day", because I don't want them to know we're trying (and I'm not close to any family). Anyone else, like people at church, I tell them if they ask. So glad the injections are going well!
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