Thanks for your kind words about ending breastfeeding. Today Mackenzie is 5 months so I at least made it this far!! I was getting really down on myself for not being able to continue it any longer. I didn't pump at all yesterday but still got to nurse her 2 times - morning and night. So I am going to continue this for as long as I can. We will see how it goes!!
(trigs)
Sooo....I never blogged about this yet because it would make it all the more real. But I think I have come to terms about it. (yeah right) Do you remember my whole ordeal with my sister? How uncompassionate, unresponsive and unsympathetic she was through my infertility travels? I wrote her this whole long letter to her and got no response back. Yeah well she is pregnant. 20 weeks actually. It took me by surprise since she announced it very shortly after I gave birth to Mackenzie. The best part about it - baby was an Ooops baby! Just like her other 2 kids. WTF! It was almost like a dig at me. "We weren't even trying!" "It happened on Valentines Day" BARF!!! I love my sister, and I will love this baby but I still cant believe that she is pregnant. She is also almost 40. Not that age matters but we all know that the older you get the harder it is to conceive...yet another dig at my infertility. (I am 10 years younger than her)
I don't know why but the whole thing just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Something tells me that she wanted to get pregnant again and tell me it was an oops just to rub it in my face. Why do I feel that way? Because of her lack of support, emotion, sisterly love and compassion when I was trying like hell to get pregnant. If she was there for me I know I would not feel this way. It doesnt help that when I bring up anything about my infertility she is uncomfortably silent. She will never understand. Never.
Oh yeah I don't think I told you that my sister in law is also pregnant. She is due after the summer and announced her pregnancy about a week before I went into labor. She said she got preggo the first month they started trying. Uggh! If it were only that easy. This is the same chick that announced her first pregnancy 3 DAYS before my wedding! Bitch always like to steal my thunder. I couldn't believe she was doing it again. But I got over it once I saw my little girls face. :)
Anyways...so that my family life right now...surrounded by fertile mertiles.....ughhh!
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(Hugs) Fertile Myrtle know it alls are the worst! I'm sorry your sister hasn't been there for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, both of those situations SUCK!! I did have to LOL at "Bitch always likes to steal my thunder" though, you crack me up :)
ReplyDeleteIn all seriousness, that would piss me off BAD. I don't know what's wrong with people!! Sorry you're surrounded by them :( Hopefully one day someone will make them feel as bad as they make you feel!! (And hopefully you're around to see it!!)
My sister in law is also pregnant again with another baby they didn't even try for. Their first one she got pregnant with without trying the first and only time they had sex without a condom. She got pregnant with this one when he was 9 months old, and announced it the weekend she came down for my baby shower.
ReplyDeleteTalk about stealing our thunder.
So sorry that you have to deal with people like this, especially family!! {{HUGS}}
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