Full Term

Today is a good day. I cant believe that it has come this far. After 2 years of trying to conceive, 3 clomid cycles, 3 IUI's, a cancelled cycle, hundreds of blood tests, hundreds of ultrasounds, tons of money spent, thousands of tears shed, too many 5am doctor visits, and a long and evasive IVF cycle - I am this close...

Full Term. Just to say that takes my breath away. I know that I still have some waiting and nothing is finalized until I have my baby in my arms but its still a good feeling. A feeling of warmth and relaxation - finally.

I know that my journey is nothing compared to what some of you ladies have been through/is going through. I think about you girls everyday. I hope, wish and pray that you all are blessed with a baby soon. I always say to my husband that if I had money, I would set up some kind of cheap, if not free infertility clinic, to be able to help other infertiles like me, get the baby they so deserve.

Yes, I still consider myself infertile and probably always will. And sometimes it sort of bothers me that I had to conceive my baby through IVF. Don't get me wrong, I am completely grateful but not really was I was expecting going into this. My one worry is my baby girl. When she gets older and we explain to her how she was conceived - will she understand? Will she understand that Mommy and Daddy did everything they could to have a baby? Will she think she is different? Will she resent us for what we had to go through? Or will she be happy that we did what we could to bring her life to this world?

Regardless what may come of the future, I am happy to announce that I am FULL TERM today. Something I didn't know if I would ever be able to say. Something that I didn't know if I would ever be able to feel and experience. But I am lucky, I am fortunate and I am so so so happy.

I also am lucky, fortunate and happy to have such wonderful ladies to have helped me along during this trying time in my life. I would NOT be where I am without you girls. I truly believe that all good things can happen when you surround yourself with positive vibes and wonderful support around you. And for this, I have all of you to thank. I love you girls so much!! <3 And I continue to pray for each and every one of you. Everyday.